ST:XI Kobayashi Maru/Meld Fic

I am desperately trying to find a fic that has Spock realizing during a meld with Kirk that Kirk has been living the final moments of the Kelvin as a sort of command training scenario for years, trying to find a solution. I don't remember if the Kobayashi Maru figures more prominently than Spock's realization that Kirk had been living a similar scenario his whole life, but I really want to find and bookmark this fic.

I don't remember if the fic is kirk/spock or not - it could be.

Any help would be greatly appreciated.