Looking for a kink meme story, I think...So Original

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Jim is ordered to participate to get an treaty for dilithium. He is to participate in a humiliating ritual that is meant to humiliate the highest ranking person. He is raped and ask Spoke to let him recover before he goes back to the ship. But wakes up in Sickbay because the rape was so brutal he nearly died. Only Spock, Uhura and Macoy sit with him while he is recovering. He bonds with Uhura during the recovery. I know I read it, just can not remember where. Please Help, Thanks.