Kirk/Spock AU

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Hi all!

I'm looking for a fic that I read forever ago. I think the basic premise is about the dark side of pon Farr. I can only remember bits of it like, Spock knows he's going to go through it soon and he can't get a professional to help him. Also, he has a female cousin that is giving Bones info on it but was a victim of a forced bond. I don't remember if it was ever finished but would love to find out! Thanks in advance for the help!!