Pon farr and angst and Spock being a meany :(

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Hi guys

Right, so this one's really dark and twisted. Spock goes into Pon Farr and takes Jim as his bondmate but they didn't have an established relationship before and Spock is generally really horrid. And I don't mean "being kinda mean" sort of horrid, I mean "sending Jim off to -uh- service (gag!) other people" horrid. Jim finds all this demeaning, of course, but goes along with it to keep Spock (Jim was always nuts about Spock). The story is the sort that scars you for life. I'm not even sure why I'm looking for it. It was very well written and I might have read it on fanfiction. net. The issue is resolved at the end but, honestly, Spock's logic is very faulty, I thought. He was apparently "letting" Jim have sexual freedom since he thought Jim did not want to be tied down to him. If this sounds familiar to anyone, give a girl a hand, please. Thanks!