AOS specific telepathy!phobia!Jim Spirk fic search

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Hey guys, so I am looking for this Star Trek AOS Spirk fic and I really want to read it but I don’t remember what it is about, except the whole Spock Prime mind melding with Jim without explaining it first had consequences like a phobia of mind-melding and I think maybe he kept seeing flashes of TOS Enterprise and her crew in place of his own (but that could be a different fic altogether) and somehow he wound up being a lot less psi-null than he should have been.

Also, I think near the end he was in a hospital where they taught people to shield themselves from people and someone (a Vulcan scientist maybe?) abducted Jim and may or may not have experimented on him to make him telepathic or whatever in the first place.

Also, I know for a fact that it ended with Spock and Jim on a beach and Jim was upset about something and put up barriers to keep Spock out of his mind even though they were like probably bondmates or something but I don’t remember anything else. Does this sound familiar to anyone?

Or even if it doesn't and you guys happen to know any really good fic about Jim being telepathic and/or having a phobia of mind-melding / telepathy because of Reboot or from some life-trauma and want to share them with me feel free because I am a loser and I love these things.