Star Trek Fic Finder

I was reading what was quite possibly the best RPF fic I've ever read, and then my browser crashed. I followed a link to the fic and now have no idea where said link is.

In it, Zach and Chris are a bit messed up respectively and have a messed up relationship together. Zach has compartmentalized his relationships into 'straight-guy friends,' 'girlfriends,' and 'gay friends.' Chris is breaking all his rules and acting like all three types of friends. He confesses his love in a drunken stupor after meeting Zach's date, Jimmy, and they start a relationship. Zach has trouble with the intimacy and feels like he'll lose himself in the relationship and Chris doesn't understand why Zach is keeping him at arm's length, but he doesn't give up, even when Zach is treating him badly. There's a lot of arguing and angst and hate!sex. I could go into more detail, but I think this should be sufficient for anyone who has read the fic. : )