Hoping someone has access to and is willing to share deleted fic

[magicalmachine.livejournal.com]

One of my favourite writers from when I used to lurk a lot in the STXI fandom was 1297. I was very disappointed when I recently discovered that her journal had been deleted and purged and all the stories were gone. I don't suppose anyone happened to save any of her Kirk/McCoy stories and/or any of her comment fics? I hope this kind of post is okay to make here. If not, please accept my apologies and slap me on the wrist. I'm just saddened at the thought of never being able to read any of her fics again because she was one of my favourite writers.

I'm also looking for a Kirk/McCoy fic that used to be in atomicskull's journal, which is also long since deleted. It was a Dollhouse AU, I think unfinished. Again, if anyone has this and is willing to share, I'd be very grateful.

Reposting a Kirk/Spock Suicide Attempt Fic

[slash-adherent.livejournal.com]

So my last request was met with awesome recs and I have lately been slowly making my way back through people's past requests hoping to find something new and interesting and I have found it....only the fic in question is still missing. GAH MY LUCK!?!?!

Since this was requested January 8th I feel no guilt reposting it. So here is the original post. But if you don't want to go check that out this is the relevant information...


"The story's reboot Kirk/Spock, pre-slash at the start and slash by the end. Kirk is pining after Spock, and the mental stress of hiding that plus other stuff coming down puts him into depression leading to an old tendency of Kirk's towards suicidal ideation. The main thing about this story which really stuck with me was a scene where while waiting to meet with Pike, Jim's suicidal thinking crystallises into actual intent to do a 50-foot swan dive out the window, but he's caught by Spock and McCoy before he can actually act on it. After the big blowout Spock gets Kirk to confess the root cause behind his current problem and they get together. Memory's a LOT fuzzy, but that was about what I can remember. I think it's on LJ, but cannot be certain." 

This fic sounds amazing and my only thought process on finding it was searching through kirkspock unrequited tags on delicous to no avail because: one I can't search for the suicide theme and two there is no way to tell for sure that the summary given would even indicate the above at all.

So I am begging and pleading that someone will remember this and help me out pretty, pretty please with internet cookies and Spock's cherry on top. XD

FOUND: HERE

lf possible fic...

[yunho.livejournal.com]

Im actually not sure if this is a real story or just a plot bunny I read somewhere but Im hoping if its the former someone could help me.

What I remember is that its Kirk/Spock (dont remember what universe though probably st: xi). Kirk suffers unrequited love for spock, and/or possibly spock is together with someone else...or possibly spock is dead...Anyway, the ship had a new room or lounge or something put in for crew members to relax in. The room is a simulation room, and Kirk uses it to make a hologram of spock. He becomes obsessed with it and spends an unhealthy anount of time there, and bones begins to get worried. Thats about all i remember :/ Any help with this is greatly appreciated! :)