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CW: Suicide attempt

I had thought this was on the Triaxian Silk website but if it is I misremembered the title. So it could be from anywhere, possibly this site even.

Basically it's a semi-angsty fic that's set either some time in season 4 or after season 4 (with the finale not being canon) in which Captain Archer finds out about Trip and T'Pol being together. In the beginning of the fic he is unsure about how close they are and decides he's going to trick them into revealing that they are together. He views them on surveilance before going from his quarters to the ready room and gets angry that Trip is leaning over T'Pol being flirty. So he contrives a fake mission that would involve Trip and something with the Kriosians (aka Kaitaama) and T'Pol nudges Trip I think through the bond and then Archer reveals it was fake and confronts them.

I forget everything that happened there but at some point in the conversation, T'Pol reveals about the Trellium D and Trip gets upset and she runs back to her quarters and pulls the wiring out of the wall and causes harm to herself. Trip rushes to her aid and when she wakes up in sickbay he apologizes to her and Archer implies he is willing to work something out (or something like that).

Has anyone ever read this and knows the title or where it is? Thanks in advance!

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carminavulcana.livejournal.com

Hello everyone, I am new to this. So pardon me if I make mistakes. I have combed the internet over the last few months for long (like really long 50k-800k) stories revolving around Spock, particularly if he is hurt/injured/sick/depressed/abused (I'll take anything. Explicit violence and sexual content do not bother me.) So if you have any recs, I'd be grateful if you could share them here.

Also since I love angsty Spock centric fics, I started writing one too. If you are interested, check it out. It is called 'Finding Spock'. This is the link on AO3: http://archiveofourown.org/works/9820079/chapters/22049192

sixstringloaded.livejournal.com

Hope I posted this right...
I'm rather new in the fandom. Although I know there're some awesome places to look for fics, it seems like I'm having some troubles finding the certain type of fic I wanna read... I watched the new films first, but then I watched TOS series, and I just can't help but fall for the Captain... so I wish you can rec me with TOS fics :)

So here's what I'm looking for:

1. Any hurt!kirk centred long fic?? I just finished reading Lost and Found by UKJess on ksarchive, and I really hope that fic can be a little bit longer!!! Or any fic that showing the vulnerable, insecure side of kirk; or he's been through some kind of physical and/or mentally trauma, or... something like this, I'll try to put 'em in the tag. Bonus if it also has protective!spock or protective!bones.

2. Any bottom!kirk long fic out there? I'm going through the ksarchive with the bottom!kirk trope, but it seems like any long fic that has a bottom!kirk trope, they also has a bottom!spock trope too.... and I really can't read bottom!spock, I just can't! So please, any long fic featuring only bottom!kirk? I actually don't really mind the pairing, as long as kirk is the bottom.

Any fic has both a hurt!kirk and a bottom!kirk would be awesome!
I actually don't really mind if there's a explicit sex scene or not, but if the story does have some NC-17 scene, I can only accept kirk as the bottom…… so PG and Gen or Pre-slash stories are welcome, too, as long as they're kirk-centred.

Please throw me with your recs!! Thanks in advance!

sonten.livejournal.com

Hi all~ newbie in the fandom, at least with fics :)

So, I went trough the tags and recced fics, but there is a specific theme, I'm after: that cliche, "you don't know what you have, until you loose it" type, with angst, hurt, and all that feelings. With Jim being the one who was hurt, and decides to leave/or give up/ or dies somehow (so death!fics are cool too).
Rating and warning doesn't matter, just please toss all the lovely fics that fit this theme :] - Spock/Kirk and Reboot preferred, but at this point, I'm not picky XD

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slash-adherent.livejournal.com

So my last request was met with awesome recs and I have lately been slowly making my way back through people's past requests hoping to find something new and interesting and I have found it....only the fic in question is still missing. GAH MY LUCK!?!?!

Since this was requested January 8th I feel no guilt reposting it. So here is the original post. But if you don't want to go check that out this is the relevant information...

"The story's reboot Kirk/Spock, pre-slash at the start and slash by the end. Kirk is pining after Spock, and the mental stress of hiding that plus other stuff coming down puts him into depression leading to an old tendency of Kirk's towards suicidal ideation. The main thing about this story which really stuck with me was a scene where while waiting to meet with Pike, Jim's suicidal thinking crystallises into actual intent to do a 50-foot swan dive out the window, but he's caught by Spock and McCoy before he can actually act on it. After the big blowout Spock gets Kirk to confess the root cause behind his current problem and they get together. Memory's a LOT fuzzy, but that was about what I can remember. I think it's on LJ, but cannot be certain."

This fic sounds amazing and my only thought process on finding it was searching through

kirkspock unrequited tags on delicous to no avail because: one I can't search for the suicide theme and two there is no way to tell for sure that the summary given would even indicate the above at all.

So I am begging and pleading that someone will remember this and help me out pretty, pretty please with internet cookies and Spock's cherry on top. XD

FOUND: HERE

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shinedsprite.livejournal.com

I was wondering if there were any good fics out there that featured Jim self harming? and, preferably, Bones finding out? Or, failing that, something where Jim has a mental disorder and Bones finds out, is the only one to know?
Even, any kind of Jim with mental instability? As in, bipolar, anorexia?
Oh, and any with a physical disability? Like a permanent limp, or diabetes?
Thanks for the help in my weird search!

songbirdie-101.livejournal.com

I'm looking for a A.U. Star Trek: 2009 story where after the situation with Gary Mitchell, Spock is tasked with looking for anyone else who might not be psi-null. He discovers that Lieutenant Jim Kirk has a telepathic ability of persuasion, which he unknowingly uses to get his way. Spock starts to suspect this at Gary's funeral.

When he confronts Jim, he finds out that the seemly happy go lucky Lieutenant has a huge depth of self-loathing, and all his trips to sickbay after "accidents" on away-missions were failed subconscious suicide attempts. Jim denies this. I didn't read much further, but that was like the first three chapters. Jim was going to fly a shuttle into a star on a suicide mission to save the ship, and I know the story ended in Kirk/Spock.

I've been looking for days, but I can't find this. I really think it was on LJ. Does this sound familar to anyone?
Please and thank you!


  Found by illariy: The Boy Who Always Smiles by

zetsubou_hana. Thanks so much!

luminare-ardua.livejournal.com

Dear Saintly Helpful Anons-- I read this story sometime last December, and now I'm ticked that I CAN'T remember for the life of me what its title was or where exactly I found it because I've been mainlining STXI fic for 2 months straight, and I apparently forgot to bookmark, gah.

The story's reboot Kirk/Spock, pre-slash at the start and slash by the end. Kirk is pining after Spock, and the mental stress of hiding that plus other stuff coming down puts him into depression leading to an old tendency of Kirk's towards suicidal ideation. The main thing about this story which really stuck with me was a scene where while waiting to meet with Pike, Jim's suicidal thinking crystallises into actual intent to do a 50-foot swan dive out the window, but he's caught by Spock and McCoy before he can actually act on it. After the big blowout Spock gets Kirk to confess the root cause behind his current problem and they get together. Memory's a LOT fuzzy, but that was about what I can remember. I think it's on LJ, but cannot be certain.

50000 internets and a model Enterprise with figurines of the command crew to the anon who can identify this fic and put me out of my misery!

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lakkane.livejournal.com

Hi ! I was wondering if there are fics with Spock being suicidal, I couldn't find any, maybe because it's not that logical?. This or either fics with Spock thinking his life is not that worthy, I'm curious to know how writers deal with it.

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sky-blue2.livejournal.com

Howdy all - I read a fic not long ago and thought I'd bookmarked it. It was unfinished and i'm pretty sure it was a kirk/mccoy (or was going to be) Bones gives up on life, taking a heap of pills that turned his insides to jelly and then to top it off slit his wrists. Kirk is a little concerned over the last conversation they have so goes to check, overrides the door and finds him. He leaves a vid for Jim to explain things and a letter for his daughter. It was a really really great fic and I can't find it to see if any more's been written so I'm hoping like crazy someone knows what this fic is (also hoping it's had some more completed.

Ta in advance

FOUND: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5330018/1/No_Light_No_Hope

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