Please Help! Looking For a Very Specific Fic.

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Hello!

So I've been searching through my bookmarks and can't seem to locate this one story that I'm really desperate to reread. I don't remember the title of it, but here's what I do remember:

The pairing is Spock/Kirk, but there's also Kirk with a Vulcan female. Kirk and the Vulcan Female meet when Kirk is studying abroad on Vulcan (I believe) and they end up in a relationship that results in a kid. For some reason, I think she dies(?), but the Vulcan female is no longer around.

I think the story is posted to LJ originally, but maybe has also been cross-posted to AO3 in the recent years.

So yeah, it's not much to go on, but I'd really appreciate any help I can get.

Anyways, Thank You all in advance!