Lost Original Series Fic

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I have somehow lost an older fic, Origial series verse. It's from Spock's point of view, and he's trying to decide what he's going to do at the end of the five year mission, since his feelings for Kirk are becoming difficult to ignore. He's almost decided to leave and enter Gol for Kholinar, but he changes his mind. They return to Earth and Admiral Komack uses it as an excuse for a dance. Scenes include Spock watching Kirk dance with a male Deltan, Spock agreeing to a dance with Kirk himself, Uhura singing a song for the pair, and an appearance by Carol Marcus, who tells Kirk that he already owes her a dance. (Kirk is not pleased by her apperance, by the way.) He later explains to Spock about David's existence, thinking that Spock will think less of him for it. Also has a rather humorous bit where Kirk calls Admiral Komack 'the PR whore'. Does anyone recognize this? I've read it several times; I should have it, but it seems to have vanished down a black hole.

Edit: I just remembered a few more details. When the group first arrived at the party, Kirk was commenting on how he and Spock were going to survive the evening. McCoy walked up and said that he prescribed 'extreme intoxication'. (I think this was during the same coversation wherein Kirk complained about Komack turning the return of the Enterprise into an excuse for a formal ball.) Also, later on Komack stalks up to the group to announce that the dancing was about to start, and as the returing hero Kirk was required to lead. He ends up dancing first with Uhura. I think Spock also manages to interrupt a conversation between Kirk and an admiral's daughter. (Bridget, I think?) Does any of this sound even vaguely familiar? I'm seriously losing it, here.