Jim is suicidal or just a complete mess when Spock dies

[fingerpaintash.livejournal.com]

Hi guys!

I've sort of blipped out of the ST fandom lately, but I just got pinched by the Spirk fairy, and am craving some nice angsty fic.

I'm looking for fics where Jim is suicidal or just really not holding it together (preferable at least a little suicidal) after Spock dies.

What I really want is a fic where Jim tries to kill himself after Spock dies and then Spock finds out after he comes back but idk if that exists. I'd love some fic where Spock comforts Jim after he comes back because Jim is still not ok about losing him and David.

THanks!

-Phi

Comments

[lah-mrh.livejournal.com]

I have a couple fics where Kirk contemplates suicide after Spock's death: Hush, Hush, Hush (http://lah-mrh.livejournal.com/14727.html) and Not As We (http://lah-mrh.livejournal.com/23863.html).

There's probably others out there, but I can't think of them.

[fingerpaintash.livejournal.com]

OH MAN I LOVE HUSH HUSH that's one of my favorite fics, absolutley break my heart, and you are one of my favorite authors. (Did you know that CMM wrote a piece inspired by Hush, Hush, Hush where he goes through with it? http://ksarchive.com/viewstory.php?sid=5098)

I don't think I've read Not As We, so I will absolutley have to, thank you so much!

[lah-mrh.livejournal.com]

Thank you! That's nice to hear. Yes, I have seen that fic, but I'm kind of attached to my own interpretation. :)

Anyway, I'm glad I could help!

[fingerpaintash.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I like yours better too, because I think that's what actually would have happened. Sometimes though, I just get a craving for angsty, questionable healthy codependent and a bit ooc fics yay know? Might just be me idk.

[kitbaker123.livejournal.com]

Great Recs... sometimes, it really does need to be TOS. x