Jim rejecting the bond with Spock

[tierry-leoine.livejournal.com]

Hi,

I'm looking ofr a fic, where Jim is insecure (in his mind, not worthy) and ends up rejecting the bond with Spock. This in turn almost ends up killing Spock.

Help anyone?

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[mclazypants.livejournal.com]

Might be Issues of the Heart by CMM?

Summary:Jim Kirk never joined StarFleet. He moved to California to escape his home in which his mother ignored him and his stepfather used him as a scapegoat for his frustration. Instead of becoming a notorious womanizer, Jim has chosen to lead a quiet life of solitude, living in an apartment complex, fixing people's computers and appliances for money. He keeps to himself, unless required to be around others in which he is unfailingly polite and respectful... but he uses his charm as a wall to keep people from getting to close to him. All of that changes when Jim goes to a StarFleet academic event to accompany a friend...


http://ksarchive.com/viewstory.php?sid=2980&warning=1

Edit: On second thought, your query really covers a lot of fics tbh. For instance, fan fave Shine Like the Sun by kyliselle (http://kyliselle.livejournal.com/13917.html) has the same particular issue and consequences. (Summary: An accident leaves Spock with amnesia. His last memory is bringing a cadet up on charges for cheating on the Kobayashi Maru - a cadet who, to his disgust, is now his bondmate.)

The same also happens in No Prince Charming (http://rusting-roses.livejournal.com/9539.html) (Summary: He was supposed to marry Prince Charming and have the happy ending he so desperately craved. But Spock was no Prince Charming, and he sure as hell wasn't in a fairytale. However, as Spock's Time approached, it looked like he might not have a choice in the matter, and that scared him more than anything. Amok time remix.) wherein Jim, who is in an arranged marriage since childhood with Spock, rejects Spock during the koon-ut-kal-if-fee by picking Gary Mitchell as his champion.