FOUND!!! Looking for a Kirk/McCoy Mirrorverse fic

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Hi.

I'm looking for a Mirrorverse fic I read a few years ago.

This is what I remember: Kirk and McCoy had a deal; Kirk protects McCoy and Joanna and McCoy accepts to be his lover. Joanna lives with Jocelyn, but through Kirk's influence/money McCoy is able to have visitation rights or something like that. One day he is going to pick up Joanna when Jocelyn's men try to kill him. McCoy almost dies and Kirk revenges McCoy by killing Jocelyn and maybe half of her clan. Once McCoy is recovered, Kirk gives him a couple of bracelets made with Jocelyn's bones, then sets McCoy free because he broke his end of the deal and couldn't protect him and Joanna. But McCoy says it was not his fault and keeps the deal.

I *think* that in the end of the story it was clear that Kirk had always loved McCoy, though McCoy makes clear that he will stay with Kirk but he will never love Kirk the way he wants because he just doesn't have it in him to be in that kind of love anymore. It is not a very dark Mirrorverse fic.

Oh, I'm sure I read that on Livejournal.

TIA!