Kirk/spock don't end up together

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So I posted this same request a week or so ago, but I still haven't found it (it's not Spice)

I'm looking for this fic where the five year mission is over and Jim has been promoted to admiral. He's stuck in a desk job that he hates and he's basically miserable (theres also a female admiral working in his office I think?) So him and spock confess feelings and stuff and then it flashes forwards to Jim's wedding, where it turns out he's not marrying spock but instead the woman who was working in his office

thanks in advance!