desperately looking for

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I'm trying to find this one specific fic. In it, Kirk makes McCoy and Spock promise that if he's ever injured past the point of recovery or anything like that, they'll both let him go and move on with their lives. As luck would have it, several months later, Kirk is captured and, when he is found, is no longer himself. In fact, he's no longer quite anyone. He's alive, but even after he is conscious, he is practically unresponsive. When Spock attempts a mind meld, he finds that Kirk's mind is completely empty--not even a personality remains. This should be the part where McCoy and Spock honor their promise and all, but while McCoy does try, Spock is too stubborn to let his best friend go and instead steals Jim, trying in vain to heal him. Nothing works until Spock, finally, stops trying and then Jim starts to come back.
Sorry, this is getting long. There's a lot more and I remember a lot of details--Jim sees auras and thinks of Spock as his "shining one", the people who origninally tortured him are trying to get him back/kill him again, when Kirk comes back to himself, he has no compassion or love because Jim controls those. I could go on, sorry. Anyways, if anyone knows where this might be, please, please let me know. I'm going crazy over here. Thanks!

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[(Anonymous)]

Is it "Sleeping in Elysium" by Isabol? It's on ksarchive.

[chipoffoldsoul.livejournal.com]

Yes it is! Thank you!