Jim/spock fanciction

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I'm looking for a fanfic where kirk tells spock about his feelings towards him but spock rejects him. Spock says that it is because of jim's inability to be in a commited relarionship and kirk is very hurt because of it. He starts talking/thinking (i don't remember) that spock thinks of him as of a whore because he had many lovers and generally has a breakdown. I don't remember much of what happened after that but i think that they finally ended up together