I remember reading a story where Spock goes through Pon Farr and must mate or die so he rapes Kirk. He doesn't want to rape Kirk but he doesn't want to die, so he does.
You might mean Debt of Honor (http://www.ksarchive.com/viewstory.php?sid=1183&index=1)? It's an AU; here's the description:
Six months after being taken prisoner and raped by a Vulcan captain, Kirk finds that same Vulcan is now being assigned as his first officer when peace between Vulcan and Earth is declared.
it's a powerful bit of writing - if it's not what you're looking for, it's still a really good story :D
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Date: 2013-10-06 10:49 am (UTC)Six months after being taken prisoner and raped by a Vulcan captain, Kirk finds that same Vulcan is now being assigned as his first officer when peace between Vulcan and Earth is declared.
it's a powerful bit of writing - if it's not what you're looking for, it's still a really good story :D
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Date: 2013-10-07 08:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-10-07 01:27 am (UTC)