Jim/McCoy - Bipolar Bones fic

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Hi, I'm looking for an AOS Trek fic where Bones and Jim are an established couple and Bones is bipolar - I'm pretty sure it is Bipolar Disease. This fic was posted on AO3 and is told by Bones' POV. Basically it is an account of living with a mental illness, how it ruined his marriage (because he had an episode in front of Jocelyn and *maybe* Joanna), trying to adjust to meds, and the bouts of depression.

I distinctly remember two things:

1- A scene where Bones runs on the threadmill to keep his thoughts away, and the author makes a comment about how one of Bones' leg is half an inch shorter than the other, and while it is not noticeable the pain from running barefoot will keep him hurting physically and not mentally;

2 - That Jim says something like "One day I will tell you what is like to live with the disease from my POV/this side",

If it helps, the author posted another fic (not complete) on AO3, an omegaverse where AOS Jim is an omega, Bones an alpha and when Jim is born Winona licks him trying to cover him with her own scent. I'm mentioning this because I think it may help finding the fic I'm lookinf for or the author - I *think* her name was a mix of 'Elaine' and 'penny', but I could be wrong.

Thanks in advace for any help. This fic really hits close home and meant a lot to me. I had it bookmarked but lost it when my computer died.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Could is be "Skin" by Elaine_Penny? Hope it's not as the author has deleted all their works and profile from AO3. :|

[sashatasha.livejournal.com]

Yes it is!!!! And nooooooo!!!! I can't even tell you how sad I am right now. Such an awesome fic and it meant so much to me - as I said, it hit really close to home. Any chance it was posted somewhere else or if someone has it saved? Or how to contact the author?