Star Trek Fic Finder

These are two of my favorite stories that I sadly lost when my computer decided to be a bitch and stop working.

1.) Bones has an issue with the darker side of Jim's job as Captain. This story deals with Bones having an inner conflict between his job as a doctor to protect and preserve all sentient life and having Jim, whom he is in a relationship, torture and kill sentient beings as part of his job as Captain and to protect the crew. Bones tries to put it out his mind that the man he loves is doing things that conflict with his deeply held morals until he can't and the two of them separate for a while, in which both of them are absolutely miserable. Uhura who notices what's going on because she had the same issue with Spock talks to McCoy and he and Jim end up back together. There is wonderful interaction between Spock, Kirk, Uhura, and McCoy forming all these really awesome relationships with one another. This was angst-y and I think it probably represented a lot of this doctors in military have to come to terms with.  pairings: kirk/mccoy spock/uhura

2.) (Warning: This is going to get a little....disturbing) This is an asylum AU, takes place in Cali. I can't remember the exact disorders Jim and Bones are diagnosed with but I can remember some aspects. Bones is still a doctor but he liked to like kidnap people, dissect them, and keep their organs around in either a basement or bury them in jars out in the yard. He got caught when he did this to his wife and then he was committed. Jim was in the system for a really long time and his brother transferred him to this particular mental health hospital. He has delusions of being the captain of the USS Enterprise and I think suffers from multiple personality disorder. For example, when things become too much for him to process emotionally he becomes his alter ego 'Spock' and plays chess with himself. Bones doesn't really like Spock. Bones also has fantasies about cutting Jim open to see his insides. Eventually Jim and Bones escape from the hospital and Bones' fantasies about cutting Jim open get worse until they are kinda chased into the Pacific Ocean by law enforcement (remember Bones is a big danger to others). It ends kinda ambiguously with them either drowning or them getting beamed up from some hellish experience.  pairings: kirk/mccoy

Sorry that these were sooo long, I just wanted to get all the details I could in there! I could also probably come up with a few more random ones if anyone isn't quite sure that they have what I'm looking for.