Specific depressed!McCoy fic search

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Hello all!

I am looking for a fic that I read on LJ (I think) a long time ago that is similar to canis takahari's take the world (and make it yours again).

It was a long, multi-chaptered fic, from McCoy's POV. Pretty sure it was AOS-based.
I think it was a modern AU - I think Bones was still working as a doctor and Jim was a businessman who travelled a lot.
It was Kirk/McCoy but it was a slow progression from friendship to more, I don't recall how they met - I just remember that it had an amazing description of Bones suffering from/coping with depression. Surprisingly, this didn't always involve McCoy drowning himself in alcohol all the time, if I remember correctly, which is (understandably) a common theme for depressed!McCoy stories, I've found.
At one point he finds out that Jim was in town for New Year's Eve but didn't let him know? Or possibly it was Christmas?
Anyway, about halfway/three quarters of the way through the story he really hits rock bottom emotionally, and then it was focused on his recovery and ended on a happy note.

I know it's not all that much to go on but I'd be super grateful for any help with finding this! I have a real soft spot for McCoy hurt/comfort and am dying to reread this one! :)