non specific request for self harming!spock

[ticktockspock.livejournal.com]

As a cruel, cruel person I love hurt!spock fics to death. Those fics alone are harder to find than others, but that's not exactly my request.

I have never, not in my whole entire time of reading Star Trek fanfics, have found a self harming Spock one. Not one, nada. I was hoping that if someone has dug deep into the abyss enough to find one, they could link it.

I'll take whatever I can get, and please post whatever self harm Spock fics you find, although slash/gen is preferred because I've never quite liked Spock/Uhura together. (Nothing against the ship, I believe they do have chemistry, but not my cup of tea.)

Comments

[weird-little.livejournal.com]

When I wrote "Strength Training," (http://archiveofourown.org/works/2683304) my beta told me I needed a warning for self-harm. I wasn't sure I agreed, but I figured it was better that people be warned unnecessarily than that they fail to get a warning that they did need.

All of which is to say that I don't know if this story is what you're looking for or not; Spock causes himself pain but not damage in it.

[ticktockspock.livejournal.com]

thank you dearly for the comment! This was actually pretty close to what I imagined, Spock using pain to keep his emotions under control. I loved the read. It gave me very interesting theories on how Vulcans do control their emotions and it gave me a lot of feelings in general because holy shit. That was a nice ass story. Hurt me to death thinking about Spock being in pain and also friendship and AHHh

[weird-little.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much; I'm thrilled that you liked the story! It's the kind of story I chose my pen name for; I named myself Weird Little Stories for truth in advertising. :-)

Congratulations, you've now met a person as strange as you are; I actually wrote a story where Spock uses pain as a way of controlling his emotions. :-)

[newaunty.livejournal.com]

Preparations (http://ksarchive.com/viewstory.php?sid=3909&warning=2) by Tydomin
Through the Good Times and the Bad (http://ksarchive.com/viewstory.php?sid=3334&warning=2) by Tydomin

As you will see, these are the first & last in a four part series. I personally found the second, main story, to be long and dreary, but you may enjoy it. Either way, I think these two may be what you're looking for.

Mayday, My Darling (https://archiveofourown.org/works/3935122) by sinestrated, isn't about self harm, but about Spock succumbing to drug addiction, and it's incredibly realistic and powerfully written. I don't know if it will interest you or not.

I've also read one about Spock with trichotillomania, or obsessively pulling his own hair out, and a very good one about him having an eating disorder - I can try to find them if you're interested?

EDIT Found them:

Like a Wildfire Burning (http://archiveofourown.org/works/4508754) by WerewolvesAreReal
That Glorious World Above the Stars (http://archiveofourown.org/works/5773546) by Mister_Spock

[ticktockspock.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for the effort to give me these AMAZING bunch of stories. I just read the last 3 and I'm honestly so amazed that I have lived a content life without reading them. I have been emotionally destroyed by the utter pain I feel for poor Spock, but in a good way bc damn that's good writing.

It was also quite interesting seeing three different ways someone can harm themselves, as self harm is typically known as only one form. Once again, all very nice stories that really make you think more about these subjects and want to learn more and become more educated.

basically thank u holy shit