McKirk with infidelity

[caralen.livejournal.com]

I remember reading this story about Kirk and McCoy in an established relationship. One night McCoy tells Kirk that he loves him, either while sleeping or about to fall asleep. Kirk has commitment issues and freaks out. He leaves and has sex with a couple (male and female). He immediately regrets it and returns to McCoy, hoping that he will forgive him.

I'm really interested in rereading this story, but I like super-hurt!Bones fics that have at least a little bit of a HEA, where he ends up with Kirk and/or Spock. Like the story Ghosts.

Thanks in advance!

Comments

[hugglewolf.livejournal.com]

Hi
I think the fic you were looking for is (This Isn't) What you wanted:

http://archiveofourown.org/works/1953090