K/S pon farr fics with a twist

[darrus.livejournal.com]

Hi!
I'm kinda new to the fandom so I'm probably asking about thing everyone knows, sorry.

There are a lot of pon farr fics around but most of what I already read goes like "it's pon farr, they have sex and everything is ok".
I want to read something where it's not ok. Where Kirk is hurt at least physically and not ok mentally too, angry/not angry because he knew what he subscribed to but anyway finds the prospect of repeating the experience disturbing. In short, lots of angst *after* sex happened. If it winds up with a happy ending, the better, but I'd take just about anything - as long as it is set in TOS universe.
Hope something like that exists and you point me in the right direction.

Thanks in advance :)

Comments

[wagnetic.livejournal.com]

I think you'd like What Makes Thee Human by K Chaps

ksarchive dot com/viewstory dot php?sid=852

[darrus.livejournal.com]

Thank you! Liked this very much :)

[wagnetic.livejournal.com]

Glad to hear it!

[germankitty]

One of THE classic Trek fics (and still a pretty damn good read, even after 30+ years) is "The Price" and its novel-length sequel, "Courts of Honour" by Syn Ferguson (Link goes to author's page at ksarchive)

It's been made available online not all that long ago, and the 'zine sold out fairly soon back in the day; it was one of the few that actually merited a reprint run (which also sold like hotcakes).

Most of the angst is on Spock's part, IIRC, but Kirk gets his fair share, too.

[darrus.livejournal.com]

Thanks! That's a real novel-size story here, I'm sure it'll be interesting :)

[crystallicsky.livejournal.com]

This is maybe slightly divergent from what you're looking for, since in this fic Kirk doesn't consent to the pon farr experience, but there's definitely a lot of him being upset and angry afterwards in Debt of Honor (http://www.ksarchive.com/viewstory.php?sid=1183&warning=1) by Brianna Falken, set in a TOS AU where Vulcan's not initially part of the Federation.

And as a sort of sub-note, knowing full well you specified TOS, I have to recommend a Reboot fic for this concept anyway, Heat (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1163857) by museaway because I think it does a really good job of handling that aspect of Kirk being not-as-okay as he'd like to be with everything pon farr entails and trying to figure out how to deal with it after the fact.

Hope you find what you're looking for somewhere! :)

[darrus.livejournal.com]

Thank you for advice! Will try Reboot too :)

[vvatima.livejournal.com]

Still Amok by Jat sapphire is awesome and TOS - it's on the KS archive. Sorry I'm on my phone and can't link. There is also a great reboot one but I can't remember the name - it's also on the KS archive - I'll look for it. It might be by Tdazz.