K/S pon farr fics with a twist

[darrus.livejournal.com]

Hi!
I'm kinda new to the fandom so I'm probably asking about thing everyone knows, sorry.

There are a lot of pon farr fics around but most of what I already read goes like "it's pon farr, they have sex and everything is ok".
I want to read something where it's not ok. Where Kirk is hurt at least physically and not ok mentally too, angry/not angry because he knew what he subscribed to but anyway finds the prospect of repeating the experience disturbing. In short, lots of angst *after* sex happened. If it winds up with a happy ending, the better, but I'd take just about anything - as long as it is set in TOS universe.
Hope something like that exists and you point me in the right direction.

Thanks in advance :)

Comments

[germankitty]

One of THE classic Trek fics (and still a pretty damn good read, even after 30+ years) is "The Price" and its novel-length sequel, "Courts of Honour" by Syn Ferguson (Link goes to author's page at ksarchive)

It's been made available online not all that long ago, and the 'zine sold out fairly soon back in the day; it was one of the few that actually merited a reprint run (which also sold like hotcakes).

Most of the angst is on Spock's part, IIRC, but Kirk gets his fair share, too.

[darrus.livejournal.com]

Thanks! That's a real novel-size story here, I'm sure it'll be interesting :)